This is my third blog post that I have started this morning. I have already written 350 words. None of those words seem to accurately carry what is happening in me this morning.
So let’s try this.
My name is Kevin and today my heart is tired, yet hopeful. And I am in.
I am tired. I have made a really bad practice of late of stringing many days of work between my different responsibilities together. I would yell at others that I am coaching for doing what I have done as of late. It is not good. So my tiredness sits there like a constant weight upon my chest. That will get relieved this week, I have some down time coming.
I am hopeful. Stephen King penned these words for Shawshank Redemption:
Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things.
It is time to get busy living or get busy dying.
Hope is present and alive in my life. In the midst of tiredness, I see hope. I am making progress, it might be imperfect, but progress all the same with the big rocks of my life. I am seeing more and more that grace is real. I see that change is possible and growth is expected. That brings hope.
Even in the midst the craziness across all the social media platforms regarding the supreme court’s decision there is hope. Hope feels a bit hard to find, but it is there.
In the midst of our lives hope is present. Hope is the strong, silent type that stands in the corner. Eyes fixed, yet open and willing to engage in conversation. Hope is not in the middle of the room, leading with a loud voice. Yet, don’t confuse other voices that are loud with with being authoritative. Hope, along with Faith and Love can change any room. Hope is the introvert of the trio. Hope waits to be brought to the center and given voice. Make friends with Hope. Lean and in close and learn.
Do not underestimate Hope’s role in your life.
Do not overlook Hope’s presence in your life.
Allow Hope’s voice to win on days that feel dark. Other voices, even your own, get loud sometimes. But as the Eagles remind us in Taking it Easy:
Don’t let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy.
My name is Kevin and today my heart is tired yet hopeful. And I am in.
Are you?